Growing up is realising you can’t hang out with anyone

Not literally, but you don’t want to hang out with many people which feels like everyone at times. I can’t think of many people I’ve met over the last year that I’d like to hang out with, but that’s partly due to where I live. I’ve met a lot of weird people in Gloucestershire and the surrounding areas of Birmingham.

*The sad thing is, after all that time I spent trying to move here I think I might need to go back down south somewhere, purely for connection's sake. The people here are ok but I don’t relate to many of them. It’s mostly the people who aren’t locals, but it’s early days.

This has now turned into a tangent, but I relate to people through humour, and if you don’t have one I will struggle to be around you. Everything can’t be serious all the time.

I don’t relate to people, people are weird, I don’t want to waste time or energy anymore, and many people are evil. There is peace by myself and whilst I do like being with other people — not that much. I’m an introvert and I’d die for our community, but not really, I’m not that real.

I get more self-aware as time goes by and I fully understand why people lose friends as they get older. For some, it’s because they’re weird and unlikeable. For others, it’s because they’re sick of the bullshit and want to focus on the people who truly care about them.

Someone on Quora mentioned that all their friends had died and I didn’t even think about that. When you get old…