I don’t get excited about anything anymore

I can’t remember the last time I got excited about anything, it’s been such a long time. Gone are the days of being an excited little kid, although that wasn’t me very often. I used to get shit for being happy and excited at times, people didn’t think it fit my image.

I still feel things, my emotions are very much still here, but I don’t experience any feelings that make me feel alive.

I see people get excited about stupid shit all the time, and I wish I could be one of them, but for whatever reason I can’t. I don’t get down but I don’t get up either. It’s usually somewhere in the middle. I’m a centrist.

Life isn’t exciting but it’s not too boring either. I feel like this is a consequence of wisdom and never having the ability to feel satisfied.

This is the type of shit that gets people into extreme sports or crime. If life was easy for me I’d definitely be doing some fuck shit.

It has its ups and downs, lol

There are pros and cons to this. I don’t get sucked into things but I also don’t get sucked into things. Sometimes getting sucked into things emotionally is a good thing as it allows you to have a human experience.

If you’re not in the moment you’re just an observer which is good sometimes as…