I have had another year of struggle, but this time it feels different…

2024 has been a tough year. I have been fired twice, I have had to move cities due to narrow-minded racism, and now one month before my 30th I am not happy with where I am in life.

I don’t feel too bad about it anymore, and I don’t feel lost. Instead, I feel like it’s a loud message that I need to do something different before I spend another decade in the same cycle.

This is a perfect opportunity to start again and complete whatever change has been happening to me over the last few years. Since my depression, I have felt like I have been changing as a person into someone I don’t recognise.

Right now, I feel like I am coming to the end of that transition, as I can see what my struggles have been teaching me. It’s time to see what’s truly important in life and do things differently.

I think I’ve gotten to the point where my true values are bursting out of me and I can’t be blind to them anymore. If I choose to follow this path I will become a different person as I am going to have different habits.

I am going to meet different people and hopefully have some different luck in life. I also know that this isn’t the end and there will be a time when I feel like this again.