I need stability to move forward in life

My life over the last few years has been like balancing on a tightrope, and I have to admit I’m quite talented at tightrope walking. Even with that being the case, it’s not a healthy way to live, I’d like the ability to put my feet on the ground and feel comfortable for once.

In order to get that I need stability, and although it might seem like an easy thing to achieve for some, my life hasn’t been that simple. I nearly had it this time, but it was ruined by a Mach 5 Giga Karen.

My depression

My depression lasted between 1.5 and 2 years, but its effects have been felt well after. Depression can ruin your life in so many ways it’s not only about how you feel on a day-to-day basis.

It made it hard to form relationships with people as I felt no emotions or connections to anything. This hurt me personally and professionally, I even got fired because of it. I became jaded and fed up with people, and I still feel like this a bit. People are pathetic.

People have no sympathy for the depressed and treat you like you’re being horrible to them because you’re not giving them what they want. When you’re depressed you really feel how much people only want to take from you. No one understands you or wants to, people don’t give a fuck as long as they’re ok.